Confidence
As we sat in the MTR on the way to Chai Wan, I asked Arunav - do you want to go through the books in the Kindle? He looked at me and said quietly, "No, no need. We are definitely going to win." I was surprised at his quiet confidence when the teachers and other team members said their opponent is strong and is likely to win.
Arunav was right, FIS won!
His team members came and told me "Thank God Arunav was in our team, he was the star! We would have soooo lost otherwise."
Again sitting in the MTR on our way back, I asked him how he was so confident of winning. He smiled contentedly and said, "Because I could remember every page of every book like a picture."
Flutter
A flutter created by a single phrase "we are leaving"
The shower of love and affection before a goodbye.
The invitations to make sure the friendship lingers.
Lunches, dinners, teas and many more.
The scramble for time, the feeling to know
you made a difference to so many.
The few words to say 'please take care'
'I cannot believe', 'I wish that is not true'
In spite of the real world life where
moving is more real than staying.
Even then.
So there is meaning in what they say.
There is a little pain and love.
Some looks without words; the silence
when the words are uttered, speak more.
So long then.
It's a boring world, with no goodbyes
It's a boring world, with constant virtual connection.
Yet, it matters.
The goodbyes.
That's the question
The questions keep coming back to me. S asked, why do you never consider going back to corporate job when you still are wanted there?
It is difficult to explain the depths of yourself.
The perfectionist me, the "go getter" me cannot balance. The temptations of excelling, of doing more, of the joy of overcoming boundaries.... blinds me towards the other side. When I turn, I find the waters have flown, the moments are gone, the damage is done. I promised myself to resist and I resist till date. That's a lot of feelings, emotions, experiences and tears summarized in a few words which cannot show the depth.
